Thursday, September 30
That was the advice my 3rd uncle gave me yesterday when I was at my aunt's clinic at Lakeside (hmm about 1 hr plus travel away). We had found some free time to chat. I seldom reject a conversation unless I'm really not in the mood. It was weird how he immediately plunged into the question by asking me why I started going to church. Conversing in chinese, the 1st thing that came into my mind was shucks, my chinese still not very good, can't give my testimony, let alone share the gospel. Before I was about to begin to speak, he continued talking about Buddhism, about a fact that war rates are lower in buddish countries, about how complex Buddhism is and how much I know about Buddhism. I let him finish what he has to say.(somehow i find for most people if you are willing to give a listening ear, they are very willing to express their views, including me) Then he asked what was in Christianity that I "liked", the practice or the views about how you live? I started by saying, those aren't the key part of my belief, cos we believe in God ... I was about to continue saying that from there all teachings started branching out but we were interrupted by my 3rd aunt came in when she was ready to help me.
From the conversation, I can draw a few points, how he viewed Christianity (he related it to the wars and somehow to slowly being corrupted western culture. I too had this wrong view before and judged Christianity by the people who called themselves Christians but are not), how he viewed religion and its application. I can understand how he felt cos i was in his shoes before. Religion to him is just a method to attain peace to be righteous, to cover this emptiness in his heart.
I wanted to say Christianity cannot be viewed as a religion. It's about knowing the truth, about knowing someone important, someone who had been there, is here, and will always be. It's about knowing who you are and how you fit into the world. It's about coming back to God.. The word addiction can't really be used in its literal sense here. Many view me as being "too Christian"... But is it wrong to believe in... Absolute Truth?
-=P3ng=- | 10:10 pm
Tuesday, September 28
For the past few weeks, I resumed by pull-up training by going over to the fitness corner before going up my flat. (I gotta exercise, if not feel so uncomfortable..) That place,as always, will be filled with little kids running around, playing badminton, cycling, or simply the traditional catching.. They turned that place into a playground (maybe cos the actual playground is not far from it).. Spending some time to workout, I sometimes enjoy listening to their conversation when I'm resting/stretching my arms. It reminds me of my past, of the times when I'm also as naive and immature =p. The lack of exposure to the world and the immaturity perhaps resulted in some very interesting thinkings and conversations. But to me they are somewhat provoking to my thoughts.
To them, acceptance and attention were a major issue. " I don't friend you!".... Sounds familiar? Then, to them there is no rewards of being honest. It's very interesting to hear them brag about things to their fellow "friends" about their deeds or about their limited knowledge. Hehe... There was this little girl (with the help of her maid) climbed up this vertical ladder and when she's halfway up, she shouted to the crowd smth like," hey look I'm so high up"... There was this boy who was using the standing broad jump jumped from the 50m mark and upon landing called out to his mom, hoping to get praise (and hope that she dunno his cheating)... I'm not making any point here, just an interesing observation... =)
Today I've received an unexpected belated bday gift from the girls in my class. Haha, I totally forgot about my bday le. Seems so far away. especially with the 2 weeks of prelims in btw now and then. But nevertheless I'm very thankful. Oh ya, for all smallville fans out there, season 4 is out in US already. From where they left off last season, I can't wait to watch what happens now. Currently downloading from kazaa... erm 5 out of 358 mb.. well hopefully next week I can watch? =s
By the way, A Wonderful Mid-Autumn Festival to all my friends out there! Enjoy the Night!~
-=P3ng=- | 7:42 pm
Monday, September 27
For those of you haven't watch the movie, go to the cinema website and book ur tickets now! I'm serious when I say it's very nice! The movie got everything, including wonderful stunts by Jackie Chan himself...and of cos, humour is smth they dun do without. =)
But for me, the highlight was the plot.. I really wanted to know what will happen and how will Jackie get over his guilt of losing 9 of his companions when he led them into a trap. And how things turn out in the end. The story ended not too badly, without much loopholes either. I shall not spoil the movie for you all. Go watch, U'll love it.
What caught my attention was how the teenagers (bad guys) valued lives. They treated shooting the police as a video game, as if like in those First Person Shooter Games, spraying your bullets, blowing up cars, killing people and counting your frags.. For gamers, we usually just say, that's not real, we are only playing. But it's always possible that it slowly changes our thinkings if we are not careful. All it takes is for a few extreme addicts to start killing lives as if they have no meaning. You will agree that there is this possibility.
The attitude was sharply contrasted with the pain felt by Jackie as each of his teammates fell to their deaths. He knew each and every person. The emotional torture and torment was so great that he'd rather have the "badies" shot him too..
Apart from the movie, another important event today was the taking back of econs and chemistry scripts. Scoring 54.9 and 44.2 respectively, I thank God i did not do badly, but knowing I still got much to learn, I gotta push on now... especially with only 38days left...
-=P3ng=- | 8:11 pm
Sunday, September 26
It had always been wonderful to go back to Anglican High... I longed to relive my life back then but a second though, nah! Today I was going back there for a different reason unlike most of the times going back to help out in St Johns...Walking into the school, my heart was filled with mixed feelings as I entered the church that I have passed countless of times during my secondary days. From marching to playing games, having triage (mass casualties scenario) and even passing that place to go to the canteen, I've only been into that place once and that's during one of the bible study lessons in sec 2 where i dreaded going in. How different my life is now!
Entering the doors, i tried to look out for my friend only to realise i might not be able to recognise him since I have never seen him for like at least 2 years and that's very long! Thank God, I managed to find him quickly and joined in the service. The whole service was in Chinese, and I had some difficulty in singing the songs of praise when some of the words I dunno how to read! Hehe.. sounds very bad... =s After the service, I got to meet some of my old classmates from 2K! Now I nearly had trouble recognising them but somehow God helped me to remember all their names. (Weird arh? Everytime that's my worst ability- remembering people's names!) It had been a wonderful visit especially finding the church is almost the same as BLC. The same type of homeliness and the way the service is conducted =)
It's nice to visit other churches once in a while, meeting with friends and together praising the Lord. Perhaps this is also a type of fellowship? Hehe, I invited my friend coming over to BLC...
-=P3ng=- | 7:21 pm
Saturday, September 25
Well, so many things happen today, we had inter cell group competition! and ycg2 is obviously the better group =p.. the outing was cool, managed to get a chance to talk to many people..
One thing caught me was the weather. We having the games at east coast park and since early afternoon, there were serious dark clouds growing in the sky.. The weather continued to be cloudy through the bible study and even when we reach the big field at east coast. As we begin the session with an opening prayer, when Timothy thanked God for the weather, I'm not sure but i think many of us really doubt if it won't rain, judging from the looks of the sky. Somehow i also felt the same way but God keep telling me in my heart to believe and have faith for what we prayed. Even if it did rain, it will be God's will and He might have something else for us. But it didn't!
Somehow i just feel this simple event has much to it. Simle but shows how fragile faith can be at times. We talk of it often but how much we practice it. When faced with hopless situations, are we able to keep out faith? Walk the talk. Be what u preach...Have faith..
-=P3ng=- | 10:46 pm
Thursday, September 23
How true this statement is for me. Maybe cos I'm very easily influenced? *shrugs* But 1 thing is for sure.. I can see 2 distinct sides of me and my life...
Back in secondary school, I had friends who were very into gaming. During the 2nd half of sec 4, after I handover in St John, I followed my friends into WC3 and boy did I spend huge amounts of time into it. With countless games online, competing with players all over the net, I began very good at it. (I was in a team that made it into the top 100 ranking in the Asia server) Those were the days... Then moving on to JC, my class guys erm nearly no one goes into intense gaming. (except for Benson =p) But one thing i liked was we were a very active bunch. So far we played soccer, frisbee, badminton, tennis together before. And we do it quite often together, save for tennis which I only got to try it today. It was quite ok, after i had missed countless shots of the ball... One side benefit is I'm keeping my fitness rather than slacking before the com (though that was intense workout of the brain).
My friends had been a wonderful part of my life. But lately, I'm finding difficulty trying to keep the bond between old friends. Sigh~
Because of the importance of my friends in my life, it brings me to my next point. Out of every 4 of my friends nearly 3 are non-Christians. As believers of Christ, we all long for the day of the second coming of Christ. But somehow I'm not exactly totally joyful over it. Yes, I would be happy to be with Christ and leave this cursed land. But my love for my friends are just as deep. The thought of them facing eternal destruction or sufferings grieves me terribly... Of course I can't force the gospel down their throats. It just doesn't work that way. That's why I'm keeping them in my prayers, and doing what I can for them.
-=P3ng=- | 9:46 pm
Wednesday, September 22
With just less than 12 hours to the last paper for my prelims, One would think I should be busy putting in my best to finish the last lap with every possible effort. I thought I would do so, but i guess i was wrong. I don't know if you would call it lack of self control, but one things is for sure is that my body can no longer sit and study already. The mood isn't there anymore. Now this body just finds some stuff to waste my precious time away. Sigh~...
Tmr is going to be a hard paper. I'm already doubting if I can get half the marks even without looking at the paper. Chemistry paper 1 had always had a reputation that the only apt word to describe it is disgusting. I want to read so many things, want to play, want to watch, want to do. I had a list of do-tos after my prelims. But somehow I really wonder if I will be following it.. Sigh.. I'm having a serious problen with self-control...
Anyway, thank God He has brought me through the almost 2 weeks of intense torture!
-=P3ng=- | 7:10 pm
Tuesday, September 21
Long it has been since I wrote;
Words don't flow out easily anymore.
How I feel I can't express;
They don't seem right anymore.
Confused and lost;
I no longer know what I seek.
The flame burns ever weakly;
Fighting with all its might to stay alive.
Shielding it from the constant wind,
My hope in doing so is as weak as the flame.
No one will understand me;
For I wrote of feelings that were not shown.
But how long I can keep these buried I do not know;
As I suffer quietly in my heart alone...
-=P3ng=- | 4:11 pm
Either I haven't been observant lately, or just mugged too much, I haven't got any inspiration to write. I don't want to just recount my daily events here cos it'll beat the point of a diary.
So feeling that I haven't been posting for some time, here is some updates. Just finished physics paper 3. Again, thank God for helping me cos if not I wouldn't have done as well. Now left 2 lighter papers, I can slowly begin to catch my breathe and some sanity in the progress, before I really lose it.
Reminder to Myself: Whenever I have time in my hands, I must not waste it. I've been longing for free time all these while when studying.
Oh by the way: Weather Forcast: Heavy Thunderstorms this coming friday afternoon. Starts raining about after Noon. Will stop at around evening time. =)
hee, just our noticing of the pattern that it always rains heavily for economics paper. The heavier the rain the more disgusting the paper. This friday is economics S paper. So can't expect any less. =p
-=P3ng=- | 4:02 pm
Friday, September 17
Sigh, after intensive mugging, day by day, hour by hour, finally when i can take a breather, i looked back and pondered how I had managed to survive the last week. Indeed, I couldn't have without God. Thank Him and Praise Him that He lives!
For the past few days, I've quite a few inspirations. But knowing i can spend at least half an hour writing a post, I decided that time would have been better spent on mugging and last min cramping whatever i can in. Now I do have a bit of regret, because i can't write without inspiration. Just don't have that instantaneous feeling.
I remember i wanted to write about the scene where I board bus 12 to sch (the maths paper was in the afternoon) on wed.. At first, at the bus stop is like quite peaceful, since it's offpeak hours. Then board bus. Go upper deck. Immediately, I was greeted by students in green uniform all looking down studyin pieces of papers in front of them. Trademark for TJ students! =p I must admit i also like to do that and amazingly i can so happen to study things that I'll use later... =D
Another one was also on Bus 12, this time going home after my econs paper (after 2.25 hours of finger torture - having to write 3 essays, my fingers were sore!) Sitting on my left was a little girl (about 4 to 5 years old, can't be too old) and her dad. She was in a very talkative mood at that time and it's really very amazing and a warm feeling to hear an innocent voice and her naive thoughts while going through the complex papers! And I'm very amazed at how fluent she can speak for her given age... A point caught my attention was when she said, " Look there is a tiger. But it's not real, only a statue." That is enough to have an impact to me. How many times have I passed that Mobile Gas Station without really noticing about it. It goes with what I always try to change and encourage others to do... and that this don't get too caught up with life until you forget to slow down your footsteps to admire the flowers or simply take time to gaze at the sky. But I guess many don't see a point to it. So no point for me waste effort telling them.
Wow, post too long le. K I'll end here. Sorry haven't been changing the countdown timer... Lol the Occasion has not passed. It is still in process!
-=P3ng=- | 10:20 pm
Wednesday, September 15
Today was my Maths Paper 1... I tell you... to sit there 3 straight hours struggling through 14 maths questions, cracking your brain to think, finding solutions, double checking answers, and pondering what's wrong here and there... Well, I wonder how i had survived!
The unusual thing I've experienced today was when I was moving on to Question 14 where I have to choose either 1 of the 2 types of questions. The 1st type I knew roughly how to do but so far in exams I had never attempted such a question, the 2nd was something I'm more confident in scoring.. But when i started reading both questions, a voice from the back of my head was literally persuading me to do the 1st one... And whenever I tried to wrestle and challenge it, I can't. I can only explain it as God helping. For it was later when i found out many of my friends attempted that question but gave up and switch. Praise God! Still, I must learn to be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit. I did not trust that voice because I was rushing for time and I wouldn't want to waste 12 marks doing a question i am not confident...
One of the gifts of the Holy Spirit is revelation. But I'm more interested in another of its gift which is the presence of God... that is to be able to feel His presence everywhere... =)
-=P3ng=- | 7:06 pm
Monday, September 13
I had wanted to study for my General Paper for the past 2 weeks, at least go through some of my past papers.. But since i couldn't even finish my core content subjects, i did not bother to worry about it in the end... Today at the examination hall, I knew I cannot expect too much because i did not prepare... As i turn over the single sheet of paper (General Paper 1 , Essay), I got shocked when i saw this question:
" Do you agree that religion serves no practical purpose but to give men hope?"
Lol, i was so delighted and thank God immediately... I mean... Hey i only had youth alpha recently... and my bible study is on Genesis... and i recently watched videos from Answersingenesis... Heh, what's there to worry about the content! I have tons to write about... Then again, I'm not expecting my paper to do well simply because my language has always been very poor... Poor in expression... Guess u all can see it from my posts...
I'm conviced I didn't do very well for my Physics which was suppose to be my strongest subject... Guess i really shouldn't have overlooked it... No choice... Now only can do my best for the papers to come... Gtg... Gotta Mug Food Chemistry...
-=P3ng=- | 6:14 pm
Sunday, September 12
In less than 11 hours is the start of my 1st written paper for prelims... General Paper 1. I just wanna delicate this post to pray for my friends and I. You are always welcome to pray for us too...
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you Lord having blessing us for the past week. Thank You for helping us through our revision and given us your wisdom and guidance.
Lord, I pray for all my friends who is sitting for their prelim exams for the coming week. God bless each and everyone of us with good health. Help us Lord to go into the examination hall with a clear mind and help us to recall whatever we have studied. God, may you help us to focus on our studies so that we may give in our best for You Lord.
Lord, I also want to pray that as we focus on our exams, may we not forget about You Lord, that we will continue to serve and depend on You each day.
Thank You Lord for listening to our prayers. And thank You Lord for everyone who is also praying for us.
In Jesus Name we pray.
Amen.
-=P3ng=- | 9:01 pm
Because of this crisis that could have created by me alone, God taught me an important lesson ... As I near the point of breakdown, God asked me, "Why do i feel so distressed?" I wanted to reply because I did not study enough, then i thought again and realised the answer... I've been too focus on my own efforts to do well for my exams for next week. I've lost all trust in God to bring me through this new week. With this, I asked for forgivness and asked for Him to help me with my faith... Praise God that He'll always be there... =)
-=P3ng=- | 7:30 am
Saturday, September 11
In less than 26hours time, I'll be facing one of the most important exams I'll ever take in TJC... the prelims... And for once, I'm very afraid...
For the past year, I haven't been very serious when it comes to major exams like March Common test or June common test... Cos for MCT, I had the Korbu expedition which took up more than half of my March holidays to study... For JCT, I had OAC camp, trip to Gentings with family, and Church Camp to Dersaru...So that took up 3/4 of my June Holidays... But now, there isn't anything draining my time away except for weekend church events like Bible Study, Youth Alpha and Sunday Service... Still, with the time given, I didn't make full use of it... Somehow I keep feeling I could have gave in more and revised a lot better... But somehow I'm just not focused.. For once I didn't plan how much time i should spend on each subject. Most of my time went to chemistry, leaving very little revision for Physics, Maths, and I haven't touch my Econs (I shudder at the thought of this)...
The more I think, the more I begin to panic...Partly because I'm worried about my grades as I should be responsible for my studies. I'm not even confident of what I've studied over the past 2 weeks! But more importantly I panic over the fact that I cannot spare anymore time to serve God..I had to make a tough decision on not going for Street Evangelism tomorrow... Sigh...
Bad planning always leads to bad results and ending... Gotta accept and do what I can now...
-=P3ng=- | 10:41 pm
While I seldom make strong feelings against matters, this particular article in Weekend today hit me very strongly...
I'm sure a lot of us watched the group 3 of the SGI (Singapore idol) last Thursday... By far we all agree that was the best group compared to the previous 2 batches... And we all witness the miraculous turn of events as Jerry Ong, who wasn't one of the strong contenders, actually got into the top 10 by votes from Singapore... And he thanked God for helping him through the finals on the results show...
Ok, now here's what many begin to find theories to explain that shocking results... People actually posts in the forum: "Guess (it) must be city harvest church, sun ho student." But Jerry is not from CHC nor is he very active in church...
As I was reading the article, I keep wondering why people are so skeptical about the results. I honestly don't think he was good nor did I vote for him, but if the votes show he is in, why people still don't accept that fact... I mean the voting system by itself is fundamentally flawed with 1 person able to send up to 50 sms votes for a person...So why is everyone so worked up over it...
Unless of course there is more to what that meets the eye... Maybe that goes down to religion... Just ask yourselves, what would have happened if another contester thanked Allah or maybe Buddha for his success... Would the reaction be different? I'm not sure, but I believe this is another work by the devil...
View the Article here...http://www.todayonline.com/articles/25723.asp
-=P3ng=- | 11:12 am
Friday, September 10
Nothing much to update.. Just wanna drop a note to all my friends who are busy studying for either for O levelsor A levels... All e best for your prelims... And remember instead of aiming perfect grades... Focus on giving your best... =) All e best everyone... It won't be long before it's over... Time doesn't stop so this will surely pass... Just make sure by the time you look back... You won't regret this day... =) Smilez!
-=P3ng=- | 10:55 pm
Thursday, September 9
This is a photo of the Sun (center) and a circular rainbow around it... I had to lie down on my back to take this...
-=P3ng=- | 8:00 pm
Of cos I have many thoughts about today... So this will be a long post…
The day started very interestingly by the countdown we had last night.. Though all my classmates and St John friends weren't there because of the Chem practical today, it was still very fun with my church and some other outside friends, not forgetting K3nny and Si Wen who came online 5 mins before midnight! =) It was really very cool when I invited all to 1 chat and they didn't know each other...
After that I tried to maximise the remaining sleep time I had to prevent myself from being too tired for the practical... The practical was interesting... I admit I didn't spend much time revising for it so it was by God's grace i managed to do most of the paper... The most interesting part of the practical was when I was doing the experiment on rate of reaction. I had to pour exact volumes of a few chemicals into a flask using a measuring cylinder and of course you should understand the agony of trying to fill to the 25 cm cube mark then you overshoot, then you gotta pour away the excess, then you pour away too much, then you got to pour in again... Thank God He was there to help... I was able to somehow get the almost exact volume by the 1st try... that did save a lot of time... =) Praise God.. =p
After which we got locked up in lt2... No big deal... But the prob is... I had to spend my birthtime (1156h) in the LT with people mugging around me... without my handphone! What to do? Mug loh!
The guys in my class went to play soccer once we were released at around 1215h... Then, I got to witness one of the amazing creations of God... Looking up into the sky, I was shocked... But very glad to see it... It's a complete circular rainbow around the sun... I took a picture of it (thank God my camera didn't spoil) but it wasn't as good as being there... U can see the picture above.. I got a friend that says whenever on a person's birthday it rains... it means that person is selfish.. Then my friend joke about why it still isn't raining... It didn't! Got a wonderful rainbow somemore... =p Anyway of cos we were joking about the whole thinking... But it's always interesting to use it to tease people...
After Lunch was a choice I had to made... I initially wanted to head over to church to watch the UFO vs Christianity talk... I'm seriously interested in it and will have tried my best to go... But somehow I did not... I decided to seize the opportunity to meet Si Wen... It was very long since we last met... Erm... last time was on her birthday about 4 months ago... She used to be in TJC and was my angel in the angel-mortal game... But now she's studying in ACJC so besides talking to her on msn, we could hardly communicate... Time sure files as I look back realizing how long it has been since then.. Yet we somehow managed to keep in touch... true friends are forever... =)
-=P3ng=- | 7:28 pm
Wednesday, September 8
Lol, it's was very interesting to see those 2 people at the gym... I mean it's smth you don't usually try to picture, let alone see it for urself... Hehe, nevertheless, everyone was very serious about working out... I tried to go all out but guess my lack of fats body can't really be trained... I really worried about the insufficient strength i have given my small size... Cos things like push up shouldn't be a prob... But carry a 20kg kit when compared with a much bigger person, I'll find more difficulty... Oh well... Don't bother about it so much for now...The gym was rather cool, as in there were a lot more people than i expected... And u can easily identify those regulars by looking at their build... Whoa... Best part is i can continue with my timetable later without much delay...Only gotta wake up earlier...hehe, planning to go there this fri...
-=P3ng=- | 10:50 pm
Hehe, ya... I'll be staying online till midnight today... So if you are free and nothing to do, join me to countdown =p
Cos last year somehow i ended up having a lot of friends in a MSN chat and starting counting down... So fun!... Hehe... I know many of us got Prelim Chem Practical tmr... So I'll understand if you cannot turn up... =D
I've changed my countdown timer... Will be changing back after tonight... =)
-=P3ng=- | 7:36 pm
Tuesday, September 7
When my parents asked me how i wanted to celebrate my bday or go where to eat... I requested for something much lesser... A trip to the park together to rest was all i asked... indeed there wasn't anymore i could have asked...
The slight drizzle during 3plus p.m. caught my attention and i prayed hard that He'll bless the outing later and that we will have a wonderful time to relax, enjoy, and bond... It had been years since we cycled as a family to the park... We used to do that when i was young, but somehow everyone is being caught up with their own lives that this family is slowly going colder each day... The trip was wonderful, it was a time where we can chat and joke, while enjoying the cool sea breeze by the park...Though it was fairly short (much shorter than the times i will spend by myself at the beach but it's better than nothing...), i believe that this is better than any material possessions that i could have asked for... I'm learning to be content with what the Lord has given and if i have a birthday wish I'll wish that by God's grace and time, my family will be saved... For this is what that matters to me most...
-=P3ng=- | 8:01 pm
Monday, September 6
Cursed is Man, for a hopeless race they are. Descendants of Adam, all fell short the glory of God.
Cursed is Man, for they are wicked, for they betray, for they murder, for they deceive.
Cursed is Man, for they glorify in their wickedness, for they gain pride from their unlawful deeds, for they destory what is made for them, for they seek what is worthy only for themselves.
Cursed is Man, for when their Saviour came, they did not acknowlegde, they did not appreciate, they did not care.
Cursed is Man, for when their Saviour came, they doubted, spat, cursed, ill-treat, and even killed Him.
What hope is there for Man? Why should anyone bother to save them?
Yet,
Blessed is Man, for they have a Creator with endless forgiveness and grace.
Blessed is Man, for God is kind and sent Jesus Christ His only son to die on the cross for the sins that He did not commit.
Blessed is Man, for Jesus Christ has endless love for us that He was willingly to lay down His life so that we can be free.
Blessed is Man, for we have a living God.
Blessed is Man, for we know Him today!
-=P3ng=- | 10:53 am
2 days ago i was at the popular warehouse sale at expo when i came across this motivational poster which goes smth like this: What can come to past, let it go, do not dwell in it. Tomorrow is a mystery so don't worry about the future. Live the Present... (smth like that.. i have very short-termed memory...)
Thinking back at what was written, (i actually wanted to buy it) i had my own opinions about it...
I feel that the past, the present and the future are all linked and cannot be separated. The past is valuable to us for it has defined who we are today. The journey we had been thus far cannot be of no worth and the various encounters in life are vital to how we live our lives today. In order to handle our lives better, we need to learn from our past. The places where we fell, made mistakes, we got to learn and not stubbornly commit them again. Especially for events in the past that hurt us badly, we must not dwell in the sorrows and start cursing but use it to become an important lesson for you. That's why the past cannot and should not be forgotten.
The future is as important. Because where we are going determines how we are living our lives today. If we live our lives being ignorant about the future, we'll find ourselves lost eventually. To many the future remains uncertain. Not totally true. Things that not change are our goals like our hope to be with Christ eventually. So if we know where are we going, we will then understand what is important in our lives and we'll not chase after the futile things.
After saying all these, i do not imply that the present is not as important. In fact, it remains the most crucial one simply because we are in it now. Therefore, we(together with God) are in control of the present. And because we are making history with each passing second, how wonderful our past is will depend very much on what we do today.
With that being said, wake up and start living...Know your past, Plan your future, Embrace your present! Just like the M1 slogan... 1 Life, Live it!
-=P3ng=- | 10:30 am
Sunday, September 5
"The Greatest Evil is when the Good sees Evil and does Nothing."
Take time to ponder over this and you'll realise the reality of it...After which, ask yourselves, have you seen wrongdoings before but chose to ignore, thinking that in this way you are clean from what might happen? I'm sure everyone of us has been in those situations before.. Let me tell you what I've learnt.. You have became the greater evil... For you have the wisdom to differentiate what is wrong from right but by choosing to remain indifferent you have committed a greater wrong... Cursed was Adam when he did not stop Eve from eating the fruit but he was ignorant and ate it himself... In the same way (though it is fiction) spiderman lost his uncle ben when he allowed a robber to escape...
In the world out there, we (be it believers or non-believers of Christ) must not take a backseat...Be ready to stand up for what's right... For the world is filled with too much evil... Never compromise standards as standards are set for reasons...
That's also why we, as believers, must be firm with the standard God has set... and not be swayed by the world...
-=P3ng=- | 10:29 pm
Friday, September 3
What do you do when times you feel frustrated? When you be so kind and patient with someone only to find that they don't appreciate? When you always think of others but they never spare a thought for you?
Do you feel tired, lost of hope or just couldn't be bothered to put in so much effort to be so "good" to them?
To me, i feel all these are inevitable in this cursed world... Sometimes i have very strong feelings to give up.. The only thing holding me was the person I'm living for... Without Him, seriously i couldn't imagine how it's possible to remain pure and kind in this cruel world.. That's why i thought it is impossible...
-=P3ng=- | 5:49 pm
Now i can't wait for end of this year... Just look at the things line up for YCG...
-Thailand Mission Trip
-Christmas performance at orchard (carols and dance Testify to Love)
-Our very own christmas neighbourhood concert!
-YCG retreat
Haha... now i really can't wait... still got grad nite and possibly a class overnight cycling... whoo~
-=P3ng=- | 5:04 pm
Another more common rephrase of the question will be "Why did you convert?". I've lost count the number of times I'm asked this question, especially during the start of this year. Strange thing is... I couldn't find an answer, or at least I didn't know how to put it in words...
Then God opened my mind when one night He help me understand, just as how there can be black sheeps in any group or organisation, there will be among the believers. However, i should not judge God based on a few people but what He has revealed and promised Himself to be all this while... I took a step forward in faith and find myself rapidly transformed to who I am today.. Thank God.. Now, looking back, while i constantly searching for the exact reason.. I realised that the reason lies with God not me.. It was God who has in the beginning chose me.. However He only chose to reveal it to me at His perfect timing.. Looking back, i realised there couldn't be a better time...
After knowing God for 3/4 of a year, I can't tell for sure what happened 9 months ago. But what I know is the exact thoughts that went through my head during then... Spending 4 years in Anglican High, it isn't easy not to hear about God. We attend Chapel services during assembly every wednesday, had bible study lessons in sec 1 & 2. All these times i rejected the gospel. A few people shared to me about the gospel before.However, none suceeded simply because I already had a closed mindset and I couldn't be bothered to challenge the countless loopholes to what they shared (perhaps this is what they call spiritual blindness) Despite this, at that time, I accepted God's existence but never bother to venture deeper. There were times, I cried out to God when things go wrong. Usually I'll like say (I didn't know talking to God was equal to praying at that time) if things turn out better then maybe i'll consider believing. But even so, I never followed what i promised...During those times, I'll back myself with a few reasons to why i don't want to convert...One of which is false prohpets and non-Christians who claim themselves to be one...Basically, I challenged God why He got believers like that...
-=P3ng=- | 1:30 pm
Thursday, September 2
It grieves my heart as I write this... Worst part is... It has always been there and i only realised it last night...
According to Romans, anyone comes out from army will not be in YCG anymore... Cos the teachings will not be relevant...which of cos i totally agree... Then I begin to think... Wait a sec, even though i may still be in YCG next year, i won't be able to participate as actively as before as most of my time will be in the army... So by right this will be my last year where I'll like struggle with my studies and cca and YCG activities... To think I'm so concerned about leaving my JC life behind... I didn't know this part of my life is going to end too...
Ok so not too bad... Then i continue to think... wait... didn't i joined YCG only start of this year... (Still rem the day when Romans ask me go join them in their YCG end of year evaluation at salvation army at changi... There's where i joined YCG) This seemed very long since then... Yet it has only been less than a year...
Time sure flies... And it's usually at these times when I really pray God will give me the recording of my life at the end of it so that i can relive the wonderful times we had...
So I guess there's much more to it for me to complete my A levels... It will become a transition for me...for I'll no longer be a young teenage anymore... No more 17, 18 years old... Anyway, no need worry so much... Life wasn't meant to stop.. It's mean't to go on... So oh well... Most importantly, follow the path that God planned for me...
-=P3ng=- | 7:35 pm
Wednesday, September 1
Things improved... Thank God.. More things absorbed, though still little things done due to lack of time.. and more importantly.. i played my heart out... exhausted.. but mentally relieved...
Many things can happen from such a simple day.. Firstly, i found out music diary on 933 now is every weekday at 1130a.m. Always loved the prog... Next, Romans showed me a hawker centre together with rows of shops which i never knew it existed.. Wonderful place... 1st thought came to my mind is this place is a untouched typical neighbourhood.. simple but always smth to appreciate over the others busy food centers... We chatted about many things, about YCG, about his work as youth worker.. like i say, it's always good to know how others are living their lives.. there's always smth to learn...
Tomorrow is my prelim physics prac... Strangely, I'm not worried over it... On the other hand, there is something that is irritating me... I think I'm gonna spend my birthtime (that is 1156h) locked up in LT2 waiting for the 3rd shift to start their prac... Sheesh!...
-=P3ng=- | 8:59 pm
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